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Step 2: Letting Go Of Old Ideas
“Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.”
For me, Step 2 is about letting go of old ideas. We already accepted in Step 1 that we can’t handle our own lives – when it comes to our addictions, we are completely insane. We had to make a change, or we were going to die or live miserably. The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous explains it best: …[W]e had but two alternatives: One was to go on to the bitter end, blotting out the consciousness of our intolerable situation as best we could; and the other, to accept spiritual help. – “There is a Solution” (p. 25).
Step 2 is the spiritual starting line for our relationship with a higher power, or “God,” of our own understanding. Cultivating this spiritual relationship provides us not only with a life of sobriety, but a life of peace, happiness, and fulfillment. Choosing to accept spiritual help means that we must first be willing to believe in something greater than ourselves. The first time I took Step 2, the “power greater” than myself upon which I relied was the treatment team I had in rehab. Though I believed in a more traditional “higher power,” I wasn’t quite sure that he/she/it cared if I was sober. I didn’t let my hesitations about “God” or organized religion stop me from working through the steps as outlined; I believed, at the very least, that if the steps could work for hundreds of thousands of alcoholics across the globe, they could potentially work for me. And that’s all I needed to get through Step 2!
As I rework the steps, I realize that Step 2 requires me to abandon a little bit more of my pride each time. I am consistently re-examining some of the old ideas and expectations I had for my life. I have let go of my preconceived notions of AA, addiction, God, religion, my ultimate life goals, my “successes,” and my “failures.” Above all, I have to let go of my need to control. Step 2 reminds me to look outside of myself for help, because my old ideas and beliefs just didn’t work.
Look outside of yourself for help at a place like Lakewood Recovery. Its small, intimate setting is the perfect place to start or continue your spiritual journey.
By: Dana M.
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My last two blog posts discuss the overlapping concepts of “unmanageability” and “powerlessness” as they relate to Step 1 of the 12 Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous. But perhaps more important than understanding such concepts is our honest recognition of them in our daily lives. We must look ourselves squarely in the eye, admitting that we have a problem with drugs and/or alcohol, or we may never receive the help we need to stay sober. We may lose our health, our sanity, or our freedom…maybe even all three. To me, Step 1 is all about honesty.
During my active addiction, dishonesty was as constant as breathing. I subsisted every hour of every day on lies and manipulation. I obviously lied to others about my alcohol and drug consumption… but more fatal than that, I lied to myself about how bad it had gotten. Somehow, I had successfully convinced myself that being constantly inebriated was somehow normal, and that I wasn’t physically capable of lasting even one day sober without going absolutely crazy.
Denial can be just as powerful as any drug. When I could no longer deny that my lies had become so pathetic that they were almost laughable. That I had a web of lies on top of other lies I could not keep track of. When I could not differentiate the true from the false, I began to experience an overwhelming sense of sadness… and then, relief!
For me, this surprising feeling of relief came when I had reached my ultimate bottom; when I had nowhere else to go. I didn’t want to live anymore...but most importantly, I didn’t want to die a lying, scheming low-life. I had to fully concede to my innermost self that I was an alcoholic to save my own life – plain and simple. Then, I had to be willing to accept help; clearly I couldn’t do it on my own. It was such a relief to finally tell the truth!
I don’t subsist on dishonesty like I once did. I don’t need to cover-up or “drink away” my guilt from all the lies… there simply aren’t as many of them anymore! Attempting to center my life in truth means that I MUST surround myself with people who help keep me honest, like Zach Rakusin from Lakewood Recovery. Hopefully this post inspires you to seek honesty in your life, whether you’re just now taking Step 1, or whether you’re seeking a community of individuals like Zach who can help you work an honest program.