Wherever I go, there I am.

Wherever I go, there I am 

Once I was able to understand that alcohol was not my problem, but the solution to my problem, I was able to make a beginning in sobriety. The problem wasn't alcohol - it was me.

For years, I thought that if I could just move somewhere else, stop hanging out with the wrong people, and become interested in other hobbies and activities, I would be OK. Unfortunately for me, wherever I moved to, there I was.  

I was the problem. I drank because it helped me escape reality. I was not happy with myself and what I had become, and I was empty on the inside. Alcohol helped to fill that void. 

The question then became: "How can I feel good about myself?" That’s where the 12-steps came into my life. If I am following the daily guidelines of a 12-step program, it is practically impossible not to build self-esteem, integrity, and a solid value system. The 12-steps call for hard work and self-sacrifice for others. It is a code of conduct; a principled way of living. Undoubtedly, when followed exactly as the steps are outlined in the Big Book, my problem with alcohol is completely removed. I am recovered from a hopeless state of mind, body, and soul. 

Today I have turned what were my biggest weaknesses into my biggest assets. All of this is due to the program of Alcoholics Anonymous. 


By: Zach Rakusin